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Faker Assholes (Read This Please)

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 9, 2005, 9:20 PM
I'm really distressed by the fact that no one looks at the deviations I submit.

I'm contemplating just taking down the whole bit and keeping it all to myself. I am no professional and I am working with half-ass equipment, but I am being watched by about 30 people and I noticed that a lot of my deviations have been viewed less than 10 times ... even less than 5 times!

If I'm on your watch list and you don't give a shit about what I'm putting up here, take me off your list. I hate you half-assers who fake like you're going to give 2 shits about what I put up on here.

If you don't care, take me off. It infuriates me that I spend a lot of time trying to do photos as good as I possibly can considering what I have to work with and no one gives a damn.

Arrogant bastards ... a lot of you people on here that suck up the publicity and the money.

Take me off your lists ... assholes.

My Life In Survey Form

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 9, 2005, 7:47 PM
Past // Present // Future


1* First grade teacher's name: Ms. Faught
2* Last words you said: The lyrics to "Points Of Authority" by Linkin Park
3* Last song you sang: "Points Of Authority" by Linkin Park
4* Last person you hugged: Jordan! <3
5* Last thing you laughed at? Jordan squealing his tires on the Windstar!
6* Last time you said "I'm in love with you": Um ... whenever the last time I said it to Mike was.
7* Last time you cried?: Last night. :'(

*PRESENT*

9* What color socks are you wearing: Nude ... hahaha ... ^_^
10* What's under your bed: Carpet
11* What time did you wake up today: 6:30 a.m.
12* Current taste: Taco Bell ^_^
13* Current hair: Wet, curly, red. Effing hawt!
WHERE IS NUMBER 14?*
15* Current annoyance: My mother. -_-
16* Current longing: To die quickly
17* Current desktop background: Inu from FMA
18* Current worry: Having to face Tim on Friday
19* Current hate: Myself
20* Current favorite article of clothing: My "Punk Bunny" shirt
WHERE IS NUMBER 21-25?
26* If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Drums
27* Favorite color: Blood Red
28* Do you believe in an afterlife: I don't know what I believe
29* How tall are you: 5' 2"
30* favorite number: 8
31* Favorite person: Jordan ^_^
32* Favorite season: Spring! <3
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Sarah ... I don't recall her last name.

*FUTURE*

..34?
35* Where do you want to go for college? Baker
36* What is your career going to be like: Something I'm passionate about ... computers!
37* How many kids do you want: Anywhere between 2-4.


*HAVE YOU EVER*

..38?
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: Yeps.
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish: Everyday of my life
41* Been to New York: Yepz
42* Been to Florida: Yepz
43* Been to California: Nope
44* Been to Hawaii: Nope
45* Been to Mexico: Nope
46* Been to China: Nope
..47?
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Nopez
..49-52
53* What book are you reading now? Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clarke.
54* Worst feeling in the world: Heartbreak
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: "Why can't I sleep forever?"
56* How many rings before you answer: 2 or 3
57* Future daughter's name: Isabelle Faith
58* Future son's name: Don't know ... I like Alan James
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Yes
60* If you could have any job you wanted: Computer Tecchy
61* Wish you had: Someone to sleep next to
62* Future College plans: Pass
63* Piercings? 2 ... so far
64* Do you do drugs: All the time ... NO ... fuckers
65* whats ur fav. movie: The Birdcage
66* What are you most scared of: Falling in Love
67* What clothes do you sleep in? My birthday suit
68* Who is the last person that called you: Mom
69* Where do you want to get married: Outside somewhere nice
70* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: I'd be dead
71* Whats ur shirt say: Nothing
72* Are you timely or always late: Typically early
73* Do you have a job: Not yet
74* Do you like being around people? Nopez
75* Best feeling in the world?: Dancing
76* Are you for world peace: NEVA!
77* Are you a health freak: Not even close
78* Do you have a "type" of person you always go after? Not at all
79* Do you want someone you don't have? Nopez ... I'm all to myself ^_^ *Hugs Self*
80* Are you lonely right now? Nope ... 'cause I know Mikey is thinking about me
81* Ever afraid you'll never get married: No
82* Do you want to get married: Yeah ... I'm getting married this Saturday ... lolz!

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

84* Cried: Yes
85* Bought Something: Dew! Wh00t!
86* Gotten Sick: Yes
87* Sang: Yes
88* Said I Love You: Yep ... to Andy, Jordan, Richard, Dave, Dave C, and many others.
89* Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: I akready told them
90* Met Someone?: Um ... no ... O_o
91* Moved On: I dwell ... it's a flaw
92* Talked To Someone: Nope ... I'm a total hermit
93* Had A Serious Talk: HAHAHA ... there's nothing serious about my talks ... but yeah.
94* Missed Someone: My Soul
95* Hugged Someone: JORDAN! <3
96* Yelled at Someone: I wish ...
97* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Nopez
98* Hit someone: I wish ...
99* Have you ever been heartbroken: Many times
100* Do you like the way things are right now? Not in particular, no.

Colorblind

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 5, 2005, 1:14 PM
Things are going to be fine.

I'm reading my book and eating right now. I don't really want to go anywhere ... I'm on house arrest, so I guess that's a good thing.

I can't wait until Thursday ... I'm excited to go back to the OakRidge campus and do another open mic night. I loved it ... it was way fun. ^_^

So hopefully this week produces good things.

Mike (not my ex) sucks for not calling me back last night. Fucker.

Love to my homies. Fuck everyone else.

"If love was red then she was colorblind."

Passionless

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 4, 2005, 9:22 AM
Once again I walk without passion.

But I have my friends and I love them very much.

Things get better with time.

Fuck Up

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 30, 2005, 11:28 AM
Love me ... your favourite fuck-up.

I wish I didn't suck at life so much.

But I love you.